smile in photos even when i don't want to
eat oily food knowing very well that i'll have a tummy upset
sleep late reading Gone with the Wind and walk around zombified the next day
consume so much chilli even when i know it makes me hot tempered
listen to sad songs when i'm depressed to get even sadder
spend so much money every month haha
skip meals then complain my complexion is shite
go out in killer heels then whine that my feet's dying
keep on buying tshirts and shorts, then complain i've got nothing pretty to wear
surround myself with winnie the pooh merchandise (dammit this has to stop)
look in the mirror and feel very tired with myself
walk in the rain even though washing out my hair later will be a bitch
find myself lusting after the LV mini lin line *swoon* i waaaaaaant
know that it is ALWAYS my choice but still feel strangely guilty
want something more when i almost have the best.
