the worst one in recent memory.
work has been getting absolutelybatshitCRAZY and today, it just felt like a whole new kinda insane. it's silly to say i've had a bad day just because, out of the 5 hours of lessons i had today, ONE hour was total crap. one non-academic lesson was absolute rubbish. so no prizes for guessing which one it was.
people who do not do what i do for a living won't understand, and it's okay, because i chose this path. and it's still my choice to forge on. that does not mean that i can simply walk away from a bad lesson- after a year, it's still so hard to let go. just like a lingering stench after food rots in your fridge, or the awful taste in your mouth after you vomit?
yeah and i rushed out to conduct national exams, returned to school to a) be told to churn out a leaving cert ASAP, b) see that the work i set for my class had not been done as perfectly as i would have made sure it was, and c) check my email, only to see that some people have. no. FUCKING. MANNERS.
true test of character, perhaps? i either need to develop a stiff upperlip to rival that of the snootiest aristocrat, or i just need to. relax. breathe.
i really hate feeling as bad as this- yes i rant a lot, and rave even more. yes i vent my frustrations and anger through unstoppable tirades, all the time. but now it feels like it's all rotting inside me.
yuck.
