it's finally D-Day! although there is a small chance that the carnival might be pushed back because of the horrible weather and stupid sucky field, i daresay we are as prepared as we'll ever be.

and strangely, i'm not that nervous.

is it because i'm more confident in my team this year? or is it because i know what to expect- prepare for the worst, but expect the best? i'm really not too sure.

seeing junmin almost break down during the teamtalk just now really woke me up to the fact that there are some of them who have actually come to love this team so much. and that in itself was a reward of sorts, because when the seniors leave, that is what i want to have left behind- a bonded team that will go from strength to strength. of course it matters if we win or lose; i'm not going to pretend that i'm in this only for the journey, because to hell with you if you've been along for the free ride but want to jump off now that we're reaching the destination.

but i shall not crumble, i shall not break down. for i have a team to lead, and we shall go out with a roar.