Monday, August 29, 2005
'definitely interested, but not tt into it.'
why can't we all b nicer to each other? honesty never killed anyone. but then again, i'm one to talk; guess i'm a hypocrite, even to d smallest extent, even as i claim to detest two-faced monsters. ah, d pain of being so loved. hur hur. slap my face.
if u've got 10 bucks to spare.. DO NOT WATCH RED EYE. i repeat: DO. NOT. WATCH. RED.EYE. d onli red eye u'll c is ur own in d mirror, mourning d pointless waste of 10 bucks.. n an hour of ur life. an hour in which u cld haf possibly made a difference. made a lasting contribution to humankind. or simply take a reaaaaali long crap. d movie was so freaking short, i dint even haf a chance to feel cold; not tt i'm complaining, but it was even more anti-climax than sex wif a 90 yr old after d viagra has worn off. bleh. not tt i'd noe haha
since when did i care so much abt d happiness of others? mayb when i realised how much of an impact i haf on how others feel. i suppose it's always been tt way, but wif maturity comes clearer sight, i guess. (having practical cookies ard dsnt hurt) if tts d case, i'd rather remain myopic. it's simply too depressing, wondering how i cld haf helped someone feel happy. but then again, hu's watching out for me in tt sense? i believe tt no man is an island. but even i agree, in my rare moments of lucidity, tt it's ridiculous for me to feel down abt other ppl. it never ends. or do i juz haf reali dysfunctional ppl ard me? haha i love my neighbours; some semblance of nomalcy, at least. ha.
so many pretty earrings! :D am going on an earring-buying spree. wat to do.. earring virgin. cant wait to stuff things into d hole. haha. now i noe how nuns might feel when they leave d order. i'm talking abt earrings, of coz. wat were u thinking? tsk tsk.
D blk is thru to handball finals; depserately wana win. as i mentioned earlier, hu plays sports UNcompetitively? tts like a chef striving to cook inedible food. i admit i was reali off-form y'day vs B block. cld have been cuz 1) i'm totally out of shape. 2) B block girls weren't rough, n it's tough being aggressive to ppl hu r generally harmless. 3) wanted to avoid serious injury. wat a joke. being sick n tired literally is never a gd excuse.. will go all out for d game later. if i can.
does it look like it's gona rain? seems to rain every week juz before my tutorial. think god is trying to tell me something. unless cookie sits ard every tuesday morning in his singlet. hmmm. rain dances? so passe. singlet-wearing cookies r d latest rage in making d sky weep.
i wana learn to fly~
Sunday, August 28, 2005
missed both netball n hockey. bleh. in all my 4 yrs in KR, never did get to play IBG hockey. but then again, given my tendency to get violent when irked, mayb it's all been for d best. ha.
sux to haf d right ankle wrapped up like some sort of white dumpling. even worse when d paste starts to dry up n cracks, while still wrapped up. bah. then again, when it was still wet, it left shit-colored stains on my pretty pink sheets.damn. but tts nothing compared to worse pain inflicted by d sinseh; no chilli, no chicken, no sour stuff n no alcohol. knn. but i've gotta b a gd girl, juz for saturday.
feeling pretty useless dis IBG; mayb i SHLD reali resign myself to flipping OHP switches, n retire from sports. ha. overrated. reali horrible to fall sick smack in d middle, then get some freak, idiotic injury.
i think watever our actions be, we shld haf to answer onli to our own conscience. people hu r too free n partake in idle gossip all shld juz get their own lives.wats so delicious abt spreading rumours n speculating? dis kinda worry has alredi cost me 3 yrs. so fucking sick of it.
Thursday, August 25, 2005
went to watch d maid with crez & cookie last night. freaking hell! so scary! hate hate hate horror movies. bleh. all dis despite d fact tt i spent most of d time clinging to cookie's arm, asking him where d scary parts r. no standard. tsk tsk. but after d irrational terror (based on wat, i still duno, considering d fact tt i missed almost all of d scary parts) subsided, i found myself feeling reali sad; how cld they haf burnt her? :( shld haf caught d penguinshow instead. :p yes, singapore cinema has come a long way since.. ummm.. when was d last memorable film? 15?
chinese 2 is killing me. missed a character during d horrorible quiz on wed. how am i supposed to remember characters i learnt, like, a yr ago? obi obi to me for bidding for it in d first place. slap my face. d hot jap guy in my chinese lect is one small consolation tho. dammit.
ate too much yesterday. eating eating eating. n now i'm paying for it. ate more choc yesterday alone than i haf in d entire week. shame. cookie, u r a bad influence! choc slut. ^^
having touch training later. ON D FIELD. so happy. shall try not to injure anyone, esp myself. :) found myself feeling like fuck running ard uselessly during d bball match against c blk on wed. dun piss me off when i'm sick.. n on d losing team. wat a sore loser. but 'it's onli ibg', rite?
off to lunch i am now; shall restrain myself from going to engin canteen yet again. record number of visits there dis week, n then some. ha. hu'd haf thought tt engin canteen wld give their arts counterparts a run for their money?
whoosh to kimchis tt burn up d dance floor.. n cookies hu crumble once they get super fucking drunk. ha.
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
it's 9:10AM n i'm awake! for chinese lecture. truly on my way to becoming a citizen of d world; learning new languages seem to b one way. oversleeping n dua-ing wilson for breakfast isn't. ha. sorry goldfish!
had a cold shower as soon as i woke up; is tt y i'm freezing my ass off now? bleh.
i'm gona haf ting xie later! think i'm more or less prepared, unless lao shi throws a curveball n.. call out characters from chinese 1. die.
a yummy korean dinner has been planned by d 3 koreans of KR; we r planning to go to ju shin jung, juz dwn d road at west coast. ha. so exciting~
cold cold cold! n to think i'm supposed to b korean. tsk tsk a shame to my own race, freezing in SINGAPORE, of all places. :p d incessant drilling nxt door irritates n annoys; feel like slapping someone. BUT. i'm pretty much determined to make today a better day.
it's alredi wednesday! middle of d week. so fast. pretty scary, how time flies. such a cliche, but reali true. or was it cuz d awful week i had last week seemed to drag on forever? it's all relative, i suppose.
read a blkmate's blog last night. she said some stuffs which were not too nice. i suppose if u dun reali share d same point of view as d others, u shld at least either voice it out or keep it to urself. but then again, it was my choice to go to her blog n read it, like pei ching said. (i love u) tts wats so fuzzy abt blogs, isnt it? on one hand, it sux tt ppl dun tell u wat they feel outright, but on d other hand, they technically did, by posting it up. so confusing. ppl should learn to b more straightforward n less hypocritical. she mentioned in her blog tt she wldnt b able to look at us without a jaundiced eye. ironically, i find myself judging her based on tt particular blog entry of hers. i'm a hypocrite as well, rnt i?
went down for bball ibg yesterday. dint play, cuz wasnt feeling well n d cough syrup wasnt helping my lucidity either. lost to e block. a d blker mentioned to me tt i've still got e blk's blood running thru my veins. altho i'd love to disagree, perhaps it's true, especially when it comes to sports. i simply cannot comprehend how ppl can play sports UNcompetitively. it's like spaghetti without pasta. but then again, tts juz my point of view. nevertheless, it dint feel good watching from d sidelines, watching my blk getting rough handled by e blkers. it's juz ibg, isnt it? counting dwn d days to touch carnival.
realized tt i', sort of rambling on. ha. but it was ur choice to read it, wasnt it? :) u haf a good day ahead too, yah. everyone deserves to b happy. 3 cheers to all of us, hu struggle so juz to live.
Monday, August 22, 2005
met up with daph for dinner at holland today. had yummy thai food; restrained my chilli intake, n ordered relatively mild green curry. gotta take marginal care of myself for touch on d 3rd. then everyone can c juz how overrated i am. ha.
speaking of being overrated, ever wondered how u'd rate urself if someone asked u? i learned tt there's a fine line between being humble n being self-depreciating. hmmm.
cramming chinese characters for d quiz later dis week. was telling victor tt how well one does in a language perhaps depends on how much one appreciates n feels for it. he cited an example of an indian friend of his hu scored, like, an A1 for higher chinese. freaking scary. but then again, those kinda ppl probably haf brains spilling outta their ears.
my neighbour finally moved in. somehow, i cant bring myself to talk to her. y? no idea. she leaves her door open; her open door is d biggest barrier of all. so paradoxical, but.. i'm so uncharitable. did grace feel like tt when she first joined d team last yr? probably. we muz learn to b kinder to each other.
d past week was a total nightmare for me; everything which could have gone wrong went wrong. but i'm glad it's all over; wilson says everything happens for a reason. i hope there was a veri good reason y all those things tt happened lsat week did. grrr.
my comp died n was revived by wilson.. d other wilson. so lucky i've got nice, helpful blkmates. i love staying in hall! but lately, i've been feeling tt wat khad said abt KR is pretty true. hmmm. food for thought.
hope we can all pull thru ibg in one piece; seems like everyone is falling sick. tsk tsk.
D block whoosh! three cheers to wilson, peiching, cookie n daph; ppl hu made last week bearable. how could u cause me so much pain n allevate it as well?
